Husband Woes (1)- Intro

This I'm sure will be the first post of many in a series titled 'Husband Woes'.

My husband is not the father of the children, but has been in their life as step-dad for over 5 years. You'd think by now he'd have things down pat. But sadly this is not the case. Some of our biggest arguments are over his treatment of the kids. He is not abusive, but he's not very loving either. He says he loves them, yet his actions don't usually reflect this. He is quick to temper, with a threshold of patience at a minimum. Little things irritate him. Maybe it's how he was raised, maybe it's his heritage. He is of a heritage that is known for fast, loud tempers. He's definately a 'yeller'.

Many days I find myself at my wits ends in dealing with him.

I've had many talks with him, where I threaten divorce if his attitude doesn't change. Sometimes it seems like he's trying, other times it seems as if he's not.

I love this man so much, he has become a part of who I am. But at times I feel as if I could hate him for his treatment of the kids.

So most of our fights are about how he treats the kids, and if it's not that, then it's usually about sex. I am a very sexual person, he doesn't seem to be. A good example of this.... on our *8 day 7 night honeymoon, we had sex ONE time. 0.o And not because I didn't want it more.

Sometimes I think it's because he's not a sexual person, other times i think it's just because he's not attracted to me. He swears he is very attracted to me, but he's my husband, he has to say that. I know I've caught him masturbating a couple times, which I wouldn't mind normally, except that I am always wanting sex, and not getting it. Why must he waste it?? I think I could count on one hand how many times I've turned him down in our whole relationship, and it was always because I didn't feel well. He has turned me away many times, seemingly for no reason at all, besides just not wanting me.

Maybe our sex life is too boring for him, maybe I should think of ways to spice it up. Funny thing is, I'm extremely kinky and would be willing to try just about anything! He does have a kink, and I've tried many times to explore this kink with him, he definately gets very excited when I do something that follows along this kink. But this is not a kink of mine, so I'm very unsure of myself when I go along with it. What will and what will not turn him on?? Just because it is not my kink, doesn't mean that it doesn't turn me on, it does. It does because one of my many fetishes is turning him on. I love to turn men on, to watch/feel them get hard, to take them to that point where there is no turning back. Where if you then were to refuse them, most men would be unable, or at least it would be extremely hard for them to stop. To bring out the animal in them. I have had many thoughts about out of the blue just going to my husband and initiating this kink of his, but like I said I am unsure of myself and still need some sort of encouragement from him to bring the kink into play. I don't know what it is that gets him so worked up about this kink, and when I asked him, he cannot tell me, so I'm always afraid I'll do it wrong. Maybe later I'll search some blogs and see if I can find others that have this same kink. Maybe I can learn something that will benefit my husband by reading what others enjoy.

I am leery about saying what this kink is, because it is not my business to tell the world of my husbands kink. I am trying to make this an anonymous blog, but what if someone can figure it out? Maybe as I write and time goes on, I'll be a little more confident that no one we know would figure out who this is. Until that time, I will just call it his kink. Although I imagine that when we next explore this kink, it will be hard to tell you all about it, without revealing what the kink is.

In any case, our sex life is great when we have it, it feels great and I almost always have an orgasm or two or more. It's just that it is not as often as I'd like.

Well for now that is about all I wish to talk about concerning my husband, but rest assured there will be many more posts on him in the future.


*I'm a very forgetful person, so our honey moon time might have been a little less, but it was close to that