ARRRRRGGGGGGGHHH

Ok i haven't the patience or desire to worry about the title. Which means this post will probably be very confusing with my thoughts flying from every direction at once. First, i love my husband... i love him very very very very much...
But damn Cougar, open ur damn mouth.... fucking learn to communicate!!!! You know how to communicate when ur angry... well maybe not.. seeing as you only know how to throw your temper tantrums and your hissy fits full of yelling....

I have one damn bad day.. one day in how long???????? I'm always so happy go lucky, today my internet being out pissed me off.. i had deadlines to meet and couldn't meet them so i get in a bad mood... wrong time to joke with me!!!!!!!

So i snip at you!! So fucking what, u do a lot more then snip at me when u have a bad day.. which is alot more often then i have a bad day. But i just overlook it... i move on.. act as if u hadn't just bitten my head off.. but you can't give me the same damn courtesy? Instead out pops your anger problem.. stomp off, slam doors.. ohhh FUCK IT!!!!!!!

So again you apologize, u tell me you will change... u tell me u realize that if you don't change it will cost you me. You say you mean it... but yet... you won't communicate with me!!! I tell you that we could try this time working together as a family to help you stop all the yelling... 'whatever' you say.. pleeeeeeaaaaaaaasssssssssseeeeeeeeee someone tell me wtf 'whatever' means????? i'm so tired of getting that as a response. 'whatever' is bullshit, that's what it is.. Fucking make up your mind and commit.. not 'whatever'

I'm on my knees begging you God, please help him to change. I don't wanna loose him, yet i cannot live with him like this.

please please please..